Wednesday, May 31, 2023

hope?

 In shadows deep, where light is lost,

There dwells a soul, a tempest tossed.

A cousin's heart, a parasitic bloom,

A darkness veiled beneath a deceptive gloom.


Within their eyes, a twisted dance,

A consuming presence, an eerie trance.

Like a leech, they feed on souls,

Their essence drains, their essence stole.


Beneath their smile, a hidden snare,

A toxic charm that ensnares the unaware.

Their words a poison, dripping with deceit,

Luring victims close, in their web they entreat.


They thrive on chaos, their heart a void,

Sucking joy and love, leaving dreams destroyed.

A darkness, unrelenting, clings to their core,

Leaving others shattered, longing for more.


But amidst the darkness, a glimmer remains,

A flicker of hope that defies the chains.

For in understanding, we can strive,

To shine a light, help them to revive.


Though their path may seem eternally grim,

We can find compassion, not letting love dim.

For even the darkest souls yearn to be free,

To break the chains that bind, to find harmony.


So let us not judge, but extend a hand,

To guide them gently, help them understand.

That in their core, a light can still reside,

And their parasitic ways can subside.


For within the deepest abyss, there's a chance,

To redeem a lost soul with a second glance.

May your cousin find solace, break free from despair,

And embrace the light, leaving darkness behind, aware.

Loki and Odin

Saturday, May 27, 2023

What kind of money, Denny?




Grandma was more upset with Denny being on drugs than her Breast Cancer diagnosis.

Friday, May 26, 2023

the Shawshank Redemption

 

FINALLY 
saw the 

5/5
Tristan let me borrow his DVD. 
Excellent film. 

Friday, May 19, 2023

Boyfriend treated me to Mexican

HELLO, I'M SHELLEY DUVALL! (official Shelley Duvall)

I need this in my life.


 

Bright SMILE!!!

 May 19, 2023


Dear Journal,


Today, I can't help but feel an overwhelming sense of joy and relief as I write these words. After months of dental issues and enduring a little pain, I am thrilled to announce that I finally have dental insurance. I've enrolled in the Aetna Dental PPO plan, and although it comes at a cost of almost $60 per month, I believe it will be worth every penny.


The mere thought of being able to take care of my dental health without constantly worrying about the financial burden is a tremendous weight off my shoulders. For so long, I've been putting off scheduling an appointment due to the uncertainty of expenses. But now, with this insurance coverage, I have a renewed sense of hope and a proactive approach to my oral health.


I wasted no time after enrolling in the plan. Just moments ago, I called and made an appointment with a dentist for the first week of June, precisely when my coverage begins. The anticipation of receiving professional care and addressing the dental issues that have been nagging at me is both exciting and comforting. It feels like the light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter with each passing day.


Sure, the monthly cost of the insurance may seem steep, but I firmly believe that investing in my well-being is always the right choice. The benefits of having access to quality dental care, the peace of mind it brings, and the potential savings in the long run far outweigh the financial aspect.


As I reflect on this new chapter in my dental health journey, I am grateful for the opportunity to prioritize my well-being. It serves as a reminder that sometimes we need to make sacrifices and adjust our budgets to ensure we can take care of ourselves properly. I know that having this dental insurance will not only improve my oral health but also contribute to my overall happiness and well-being.


In the coming weeks, I will eagerly await my appointment, counting down the days until I can sit in that dental chair with confidence, knowing that I have taken the necessary steps to prioritize my dental health. This is the beginning of a journey towards a healthier smile and a brighter future.


Until next time, xo

Thursday, May 18, 2023

interesting interpretation from the artificial intelligence

I asked the AI to explain religion to me regarding the father, son and the holy Ghost in a scientific way...

Sure, here is a science fiction interpretation of the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost:

The Father is the universe itself. It is the source of all energy and matter, and it is responsible for the creation of all things. The Son is the life force that animates the universe. It is the spark of creativity and intelligence that gives life to all things. The Holy Spirit is the force of love that binds the universe together. It is the energy of compassion and forgiveness that unites all things.

In this interpretation, the Trinity is not a mystery, but a scientific law. It is the fundamental principle that governs the universe. The Father, Son, and Holy Ghost are not three separate beings, but three aspects of the same thing. They are the three dimensions of reality: space, time, and energy.

This interpretation of the Trinity is not new. It has been around for centuries, and it has been expressed in many different ways. In the 17th century, the English philosopher and scientist Francis Bacon wrote, "The Father is the cause, the Son the effect, and the Holy Ghost the bond of union between them." In the 20th century, the American physicist and theologian John Polkinghorne wrote, "The Father is the ground of being, the Son is the way of being, and the Holy Spirit is the power of being."

This interpretation of the Trinity is not without its critics. Some people argue that it is too abstract and that it does not do justice to the mystery of God. Others argue that it is too materialistic and that it does not give enough credit to the spiritual dimension of life.

Despite these criticisms, this interpretation of the Trinity has been found to be helpful by many people. It provides a way of understanding the universe that is both scientific and spiritual. It is a way of seeing the world as a unified whole, and it is a way of understanding our place in the universe.

Can you say adorable?!

Monday, May 15, 2023

Michael B - Amazon review of 'The Room'

 Reviewed in the United States on March 1, 2017

Let me be clear, The Room was not intended to be an easy watch. However, if you are able to understand the complex plot, it is easy to understand the hype surrounding the movie. The Room is a masterclass in subtlety.

The Room stars Carolyn Minnott, who plays Claudette, an elderly woman under anesthesia currently undergoing a last-ditch surgical attempt to rid her body of terminal late-stage breast cancer. Though her surgery is never shown, the director, Tommy Wiseau who plays the minor character Johnny, masterfully uses Claudette as an unreliable narrator to let the audience delve into Claudette's tormented ego as she comes to grips with her relationship with her daughter Lisa, the lingering angst Claudette has about her life's achievements, and her own mortality.

Initially, it bears mentioning how Wiseau brilliantly alludes to Claudette's surgery. Wiseau's use of subtlety in two respects demonstrates his understanding of cinematic technique. First, Wiseau uses set pieces that appear profoundly artificial. Many set pieces are oddly decorated, have backdrops that do not track with the foreground, or are completely unnecessary to the plot. Second, Wiseau also injects subtle artificiality into characters themselves. Love scenes don't make sense anatomically, the delivery of certain lines is exaggerated beyond all bounds of acceptability, and many characters wear clothing that seems to be taken off the backs of the 1996 NBA draft class.

Do not be alarmed, this was intentional. Wiseau uses this artificiality to convey a sense that something is just not right...that perhaps what we're seeing is not quite reality, but instead are the memories of a tortured mind under anesthesia. This properly sets the stage for Claudette's introspective fever dream drama.

Claudette's tale is predominantly told through her interactions with other characters. Notably, the depictions of the characters in the movie are a prime example of how Wiseau tells this tale - elaborating on the personality of Claudette, and giving us a glimpse into the life she has lived, a life which might be lost at the end of the movie. For example, throughout the movie, it is clear that the anesthesia causes Claudette to undertake a profound self-examination, which Wiseau portrays by having Claudette impose her own insecurities onto others. The appearance of many characters changes subtly between most scenes, each character has subplots or motivations that are only partially developed, many characters appear fickle or even homicidal, and sometimes entire characters are replaced with different actors.

It is clear that Wiseau did this to demonstrate the inner turmoil felt by Claudette while on the operating table, and balancing this with Claudette's own limited experience with many of the people she knows in her own life. For example, although Claudette's relationship with her daughter is a loving one, Lisa is often depicted as manipulative and conniving. This clearly shows that while Claudette loves her otherwise perfect daughter, she is upset by her bland eagerness to be married and live safely. This allows us to understand better Claudette's regrets. By imposing this character flaw onto her daughter, Wiseau peels back the layer of the Claudette onion, and shows how she secretly wishes her daughter would live the life Claudette always dreamed about - carefree without regard for the feelings of others. By imposing her own insecurities onto her perfect daughter, Wiseau gives the watcher a glimpse into the complex motivations of Claudette.

Another prime example is Peter, Johnny's psychologist friend. Peter represents Claudette's feelings about the psychology profession as a whole. While Peter often times give sound advice, he is ambiguously replaced with another actor later in the movie. This shows that while Claudette values good psychological advice, in her opinion psychologists are fungible as good advice can come from anyone. Did Claudette have a bad experience with a psychologist in the past? Who knows, as Wiseau deliberately uses this ambiguity to paint a more pained and nuanced picture of Claudette.

However, what is most compelling about the Room is how Wiseau breaks the fourth wall by juxtaposing Claudette's thoughtful and seemingly self-aware dialogue against the nonsensical lines recited by other characters. For example, when major reoccurring and purposeful character Denny (played by Phillip Haldiman) asks Lisa to borrow the ingredients for basically an entire cake, Claudette asks whether Denny even has a kitchen. This rare criticality insinuates that Claudette is aware that she is undergoing surgery and subtly makes the viewer reflect on the extent of Claudette's own introspection. In fact, Claudette's brief mention of her breast cancer shows she is not only aware of it; but more importantly, the briefness in which it is mentioned shows that Claudette has avoided addressing it for a while, but believes she must now confront it directly. This sets up the final scene - Claudette's climactic coming to grips with her own mortality.

Finally ending in the death of a minor character (I won't say who), Claudette eventually comes to grips with her own mortality. Though it is left ambiguous whether Claudette passes away at the end of the movie, it is - MAJOR SPOILERS - heavily implied that Claudette succumbs to her illness on the operating table. However, although Claudette may have passed, it is not before many of the characters express strong regrets for the events that transpired during the movie. Many characters are remorseful for the way they treated others, and many are struck by their own profound self-realizations. This is Claudette reconciling her turmoils. Although it is heavily implied Claudette succumbs to cancer, Wiseau leaves Claudette's fate open to interpretation, keeping the door open to the possibility of a happy ending - Claudette is finally able to live the carefree life she has always dreamed.

In the end, it's hard to think of adjectives to describe a movie that so masterfully uses an apparently standalone plot as a distraction from the true plot - a nuanced and self-aware introspective about the life and times of a dying woman. This movie is truly unique and peerless. The five stars reviews of this movie are well deserved and I highly recommend it to anyone looking for an esoteric cult-classic that ranks among the greatest psychological thrillers of its day. If you like this movie, I would also recommend Memento, Split, or anything with Nicolas Cage.

OVERALL RATING: 5 thumbs up and 2/2 stars.

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Monday, May 8, 2023