I love...

 I love a dry saucy ramen... I love a good broth - from chicken soup... But I don't necessarily like them together... My chili ramen, that I learned to cook in jail, is a great recipe. I go to register this Monday. Every 6 months... to remind myself... it's not worth it. 

I am not enjoying the heat. . .  woke up this morning and my throat is a bit raw. Perhaps from Grayson shedding all over the place, or the dust in my bedroom... 

It's Saturday - but it doesn't feel like Saturday. Mom is taking the night off work... so.... who knows.

I am just contemplating life each day. I'm working on my savings. I get paid on Wednesday... Casey gets paid on Monday. He is taking me to Rampart for my B-Day celebration. Monday nights are "NY Deli Night / Jewish foods"... It's really good. 

mom is at the urgent care .. for a little bruise

my first pair of Oakley - bday present to myself

The cutest pup..back home from his walk around the block.

He's happy

I want energy!

 I call my power back to me. I call my energy back to me. I call my magic back to me. I am cleansed and disconnected from anything that may drain me . I am shielded from any energy that does not serve me. I am safe. I am protected. I am whole. And so it is. And it is so.”

A prayer to call your energy back

 

A prayer to call your energy back —

“I now call all my energy back to myself. I unhook from the need for others to see me in any certain way at this time. I am no longer energetically, emotionally or mentally available to assume what others are thinking, needing or feeling and trust them as capable to feel their feelings and own their needs.

I trust that I am sovereign over my experience, and in doing so, accept full responsibility to honor myself, my vision and my body’s needs.

I no longer dance the dance of people-pleasing, placating or niceties. My energy, my body, my emotions, my boundaries, my joy, my healing, my choices— all of it is my responsibility and I accept this responsibility with reverence. 

I trust myself with my fullness.

I trust that others are capable of healing without my rescuing, tending or saving. I trust my own capacity to feel my discomfort when others are having distressful experiences, projections or want me to give more than I can.

I trust my sovereignty to choose who, what and how to use my energy in this time. I trust myself to make bold choices with what I hear as I tune in. I trust myself to recover when I get it “wrong.” I now make the sovereign choose to believe that it is safe to be in my fullness and for others to be in theirs.

I am my own. I am my own. I am my own.

This is my freedom.

Amen and amen.”

Had an amazing dinner at Rampart

look how regal

Letter from Jonathan!

 Hi there :)

So we have a new system on our tablets called "Edovo", and this new system allows us access to so many educational, spiritual, and other resources, some of which provide us with certification and credentials. Its amazing! I am utilizing this new resource, and I am enjoying learning and having access to worship music videos! That is actually something I wanted to share with you that is super impacting and powerful in my life, so I want you to check it out and experience it too. Check out "Elevation Worship" on YouTube. Start with a video called "Jireh" and "The Blessing" ...then go from there. There are so many wonderful videos! Love them so much!!! I am super sleepy now so I am heading to sleep. :) Before I do, I will remind you of a dream I had while in county. You were in it too! We were working in a corrections facility as educators. I had helped to lead a mural painting project, and you were helping to teach English. Amongst other things, we had produced a learning center that focused on helping others to become better listeners and compassionate individuals who understood how to speak through life-enhancing language. There was a library, and a project room, and a theater for performance art and concerts. Sweet dreams my dear friend! Jonathan